Dissapointment

Why do I ever let myself get my hopes up?? It always end in disappointment. I have a wonderful boyfriend an awesome dog and an adorable guinea pig. As long as I don't f it up, my roommate is my friend. My big and I are getting better and that's about all I have. My littles never talk to me and my parents treat my like shit and it only gets worse with age. Why is my life this way??? Idk sometimes I think God decided I suck. Idk. I know I should be thankful but it's hard.